adorable.

this is the most amazing thing i've ever seen. jimmy and i have decided that we're going to learn this dance, and then strip down and do it at parties while smashed.









that is all.

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siamese dream.


"coming down
from my siamese dream.
all we know is silent.










motherfuckers try
to crack your crown,
break you open, and suck you out."


-siamese dream,
the smashing pumpkins




it feels like as soon as school got out for winter break, my creativity came back in full force. thank god. i was starting to worry.

i'm still playing around with some photos and some other projects too. ))








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taylor

...finally.


mira and helen.


reuben being a hot bitch.


helen and reuben.


mira's intense silhouette.


a tiny one of reuben.


super good one of helen.



all the pictures we took of daniel didn't turn out cause of the way the light was on him. he looked like an alien sort of...

so, best concert ever. it made my life. no joke. i was super happy for like a week after.

and yea, sorry it took me so long to get these up. school eats my life. speaking of which, i'm going to go paint until i dieeee. whyyyyyyyyy.








<3

omg, it was SOO amazing. best concert i've ever been to, by far. and we were so close!! totally worth ditching painting. <33

ok, so, the run down: the los angeles public transit put on a free concert with the help of fuel tv. the only catch was that you had to take public transit there, so basically we just parked at the metro station in universal city and took the metro one stop to the hollywood/highland mall.

the line was really really intense. so intense that we thought we might not get in, but apparently there weren't that many people actually getting in, probably cause of the little known catch, cause when we actually got in we were able to get really close to the stage, which was awesome.

great northern opened for them, and they were awesome. the bassist was adorable. [picturees to come later.] the wait between their set and ladytron's felt like it took forever, but then the lights went out, and the music started, and the stage lights came on, and they walked out, and it was amazing!

they started with high rise, and ended up playing most of witching hour, except for sugar, which made me a little sad. they also played seventeen and playgirl, of course. they ended their set with destroy everything you touch, and the crowd almost exploded! i loved it so much. i was totally singing and dancing and jumping around like a dumbass, i was THAT into it. mira and helen were so fucking adorable. and reuben was a hot bitch, as is the norm.

everything worked out perfectly too; i didn't have to miss my critique in 2D design, [which i did really well in] so we ended up leaving at 5:30. it only took us 30 minutes to get to la from moorpark, and we found parking at the metro really fast. i even had the exact amount of money for my metro tickets, food, and a sweet ladytron shirt, which i plan on wearing today. :D

the concert made me so happy, i was sort of in a funk before it, and now i feel amazing. thanks ladytron. ily.














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...about elephants chasing me through an abandoned market trying to smash open my ribcage with their trunks. it was traumatic.





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losing an inspiration, and a role model:

<3



so, i haven't been able to shut up about this since i read his journal, it bothers me that much. bare with me.

i've followed this guy's work for like... years, and he's been a HUGE source of inspiration to me. it really upsets me that people had to be so cruel that they drove him away. it's going to be weird to know that he's still creating art somewhere and that i no longer have the privilege of seeing it.

just in case you're going "wtfuck?": that guy [whoa, i just had déja vu. intense. k, sorry.] has a belief that his personal life and/or anything about him other than his art are unimportant to the viewer, which makes perfect sense.

he makes it so very little is known about him, even his gender, though it's speculated that he's a guy [though he appears as a girl in some shots for art's sake.] but, like recently people have been prying a lot and asking stupid questions about his gender and what not, which is kind of to be expected seeing how he purposefully perpetuates his androgyny... but whatever.

and, like most internet famous people, he has a lot of people that don't like him because he's successful, which is the dumbest shit. so, basically, all these people have made him so annoyed that he's no longer going to post art, or anything for that matter, anywhere on the web anymore...

i really hope he decides to come back. i should hope he's a stronger person than that. like, i'm sure it hurts when people say things like they have, but you can't let it affect you that much... then again, i can't really say. i've never been in his situation...

:/








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warning: it's an epic novel. an intense, horrifying, epic novel.

so, basically, i had this crazy ass dream that the shit from '28 weeks later' was real, except in my version the infected had solid black eyes, and the 'blood' that came out of their eyes and mouths was black. because i am just that gothic.

ok, in the beginning i wasn't there, it was like i was watching a movie of this situation. there was a tram, like at disneyland, and it had a bunch of survivors on it and they were trying to go to a safe point, and it's going like waaaay faster then it should be, but whatev. they were running away from zombies.

so, all the people seemed calm, like they were cautious, but thought they were safe for the most part. there were probably a good 50 people on the thing, which was driving through a wooded area, like a park. there was grass leading up to the tram, and then like 20 feet farther the woods started.

then all of a sudden the infected come out of the woods, like in a row parallel to the track, and they're all running toward the tram.
there are like 15 of them and they're all wearing wedding attire, there's a bride, and she has her veil over her face, stained in black blood, and a groom; a whole wedding party.

so naturally, everyone on the tram starts freaking out, so the driver starts going faster, and then like up ahead the infected are on the track, and they run them over, but it throws the tram off course a little and it jumps the track on a turn and slams into the back of some houses.

most of the people are trapped or injured, but some run away. and the dream focuses in on this elderly couple. the wife is trying to get her husband out, but he's pinned, and the infected are coming, so she has to leave him, and he's like calling out to her, and she's crying hysterically. then she turns back to see them attack him. and as she turns back, she gets overtaken by the infected, and they throw up black blood on her and tear at her throat like in the movie, and then her eyes turn black, and she starts screaming and attacks a fleeing survivor.

then, the focus goes to me, hiding in one of the houses in the neighborhood that the tram hit, and i can hear the commotion outside, so i get my shit and run outside. some of the survivors from the tram and neighborhood are piling into cars, and they won't let me in cause there's no room, and they all speed off, and i'm like trying to stop someone to take me with them, but they ignore me.

so i run down the street, and i see some cars, an rv, and an suv all starting to drive away, and i run up to the rv, and i'm like "the infected are coming, can i go with you?" and the guy in the driver's seat [who was this really pretty blonde guy, by the way] says "yea, get in." so his friend jumps into the back, and i get in the passenger seat and we speed off.

so, we're like a train of cars following one of the little cars. then he introduces himself and tells me his name is christopher. we start talking about the situation, and then he was like "i like your ring." and i look down, and i have on this silver ring i have that i got in japan that looks like a crown. so i take it off and try to give it to him, and he's like "no, it's ok," and i was like "no, if it weren't for you, i'd be dead already," then he says "well i wasn't going to leave you." then i try to convince him again, and he takes it and puts it on. i know, right? adorable. no, seriously, it was like the cute part of the movie where everyone goes "AWWWWW" except we're both boys. and we were being chased by zombies.

then i ask him where we're going, and he tells me that we're heading to a nearby hospital cause some of the peple from the tram are in the other cars and injured, and we need to stock up on medical equipment for the trip to the safe point. [in case you didn't see the movie, a 'safe point' was what they called the stronghold that was managed by the military in the movie. they would broadcast the location of it over the radio waves so people would go to it, and then helicopters would do pick ups from it.]

so we're driving through this wooded area, and then we pass through a little town that's completely abandoned, and there's blood everywhere, [of course] but there were no bodies.

so i was like "there's no bodies, that means there's a whole town full of infected running around over here, we shouldn't get out," but he was like "we have to."

finally we get to the hospital complex, but there are locked fences in front of the parking lot blocking us, and the lead car pulls off and gestures for us to ram the fence, so we do, and all the cars pull into the loading area under the alcoves and we get out of the rv. all the other cars are parked around us, and a few people get out of the other cars and go up to the loading bay, but it has one of those big metal sliding door things, so they're trying to pull it up.

then i hear the people waiting in the cars calling out, and turn around to see a whole bunch of infected on the horizon coming up the hill in the distance, and i call out to chris, and he sees them and starts frantically trying harder to get the door open.

and i'm screaming at him "there's no time! get in the car!" and he was like "we almost got it!" then the infected were like coming throught the gates, so he starts runnng back to the rv, and then two infected people run over and attack him and this other guy before he can get back. so i lock the doors on the rv and was going to try to drive away, but he had the keys, so i hide. and i could hear the infected outside and the other people being killed, and then it was quiet, but i could still hear people moving around outside.

then i heard the hatch on the back of the rv open, and i had enough time to think "OH FUCK!" and then i woke up.

the end.

it was SOOOO intense. i was way scared. that movie totally fucked my shit up...













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so, i finally re-dyed my hair yesterday all by myself... [i know, you're so proud...]

it makes me happy cause i was getting trés annoyed with having brown/blonde/black hair. so now it's solid black. no streaks or highlights or blah blah blah.










and it has a tiny happy blue tint. :)




fin.

<3

delicious chocolate chip pancakes make me feel like i'm going to vomit...




:(
















the end.

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taylor

amazing movie, but did anyone notice that you can totally see the mic in like a lot of the shots? it's especially noticeable in the scene where kale is in his spanish class talking to the teacher. it's seriously just bobbing around above their heads the WHOLE time...

how embarassing for the people that edited that movie...

and omg, in the part where kale is trying to fuck up ashley's party and she comes over to his house to bitch at him, you can totally see part of her nipple. hilarious.








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omg i finally got the crazy version of the sims with ALL the expansions in it, and i am SO addicted. like, it's a little not healthy. ok, a lot not healthy.

i missed being a vengeful god and fucking with their little world. it's hilarious.

do you love how i'm too ghettofab to get the sims 2? i do.















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p.s. omg, such gossip i have.

is stuck in my head forever now. thanks jenna.

even better, i can't even listen to it cause limewire is being a selfish whore and won't let me download it...

it's a good song. even if it is about a 19 year old hussy.



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p.s. i saw vikki's bunny last night. he is adorable. i love his tiny face. it's ok to be jealous. <3



EDIT: i just bought it off itunes. TAKE THAT WORLD!

taylor: 1
world: 5278278652754390...

It's been a long, long, long time.
It's been a long, long, long time.
It's been a cold, cold winter...
I wanna ditch my prayers for this one.

You best go blind, blind girl, or the season will destroy you.

Be a good, good, good friend.
Keep out of grim, dim, lighting.
I wanna go down to the East,
And I wanna throw myself in the ocean.

There will be hell to pay when I get up today...



-Matson Jones,
////Spring Fever

so i just realized that my birthday is in like a week, which kind of makes me want to kill myself.

i hate birthdays... they make me think about getting old and decrepit and then dying... like, i don't need a reminder that i'm getting old and will eventually die. i know i shouldn't be thinking that way, but i do.

whatever, people will give me things for having been born... that's always cool, right?


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taylor

dear tuesday,

try not to suck really bad. today will either be really good or really bad, i just know it. but i'm thinking not so positively, which is awesome.

i have a weird feeling about today, consider yourselves warned...

<3,
taylor






p.s. not sleeping in two days kind of blows... :(